On Matters Of The Heart
What’s on your heart?
First off, I realize I have yet to add any audio or commentary from the last two Thursday Night Talks. I’m going to put the first, from Thursday April 15th, up here. It was a talk on the fourth commandment, Keeping the Sabbath Holy. So I apologize to anyone who’s been waiting by their computers. I really am trying to stay in the habit of frequent writing, it’s just so easy for it to get lost amidst the myriad of details, ideas, and other time consuming events.
I’ve been thinking lately about trying to rebalance my life. In the middle of this series on the ten commandments I had a bit of a realization that my life lacks balance and peace. This mind-opening thought came to me as I was working away on what I was going to say about the fourth command, Keep the Sabbath Holy. It’s always an adventure when the stuff you’re working on actually hits home.
For those that don’t know me, I have a hard time letting go of work. This is especially difficult in a job that transcends hours and shifts and any particular environment. It’s not easy for me to disconnect myself from the constant flood of demands and ideas and opportunities that go with this calling. These dominate my heart and my mind when I’m at the church, at home, out with people, lying awake in my bed each night, and just about any other time between. Most of the time, I’m not especially bothered by this, it’s kind of what gives me my edge and keeps me focused. However, I have noticed the way in which my life, or any life really, needs balance and peace in order to keep from crashing.
So I’ve been trying to take this Sabbath thing seriously and actually find time to rest and refresh. Part of this has meant unplugging myself so-to-speak on my days off. I’ve actually been resisting the temptation to even turn my laptop on to keep from even starting to do any work. I’m trying to get outside and walk more. I’m attempting to eat healthier (or even at all some days). And I’m trying to make sure that I make meaningful connections to the people in my life by giving them my attention and focus while I’m with them (so hard to do in our cellphone/laptop culture).
In this process I’ve also been trying to refocus my calling into ministry. While on a walk through Uxbridge the other day, I found myself walking by the high school in an attempt to answer the question I was asking God, why do I do what I do? It’s so easy for the calling of God to get mixed up in the stale, everyday routine. I lose focus.
I won’t share all the details of how God used this walk to grab my attention and reawaken my passion and vision. I will say that he reminded me why I’m in this and affirmed me in a much needed way. I once again pleaded that God would let me see the world, see the students through his eyes and that he would give me his heart for them. And let me tell you, it’s a truly amazing thing to behold.
David writes in Psalm 37, “Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him, and he will act… Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him.”
In Ezekiel God promises that a time is coming when he will “give [us] a new heart and a new Spirit.”(Ez. 36:26) As we draw closer to God, seeking him and putting our complete trust in him, our hearts are remade into something new. Our spirit becomes one with his and we see the world through his eyes, with his heart, with his love. Can you imagine a world where the followers of Christ actually loved like God? Unconditionally, selflessly, joyfully. That is an exciting thought!
It’s too easy for this to get lost in our daily lives. There’s so much to get burdened by. So much to take our attention and overwhelm our thoughts. So much to disconnect the beat of our heart from God’s. This is why these personal times of reflection and refocus are so important. To seek God’s heart and be filled by his Spirit.
That’s what’s on my heart. How about yours?
| So I think I’ll stay | caught up in a silent prayer | ’cause I believe in silence | our hearts speak the same word |
- Blindside, Silence
Thanks,











